That’s how you know you love someone, I guess, when you can’t experience anything without wishing the other person were there to see it, too. Kaui Hard Hemmings (via psych-facts) Sunday Sep 9 @ 05:10pm with 9,295 notes

I’ve been told that alcohol is bad for me.
I’ve also been told that loving you is bad for me.

I’m still drinking

I.S (via in-toxicxted) Sunday Sep 9 @ 05:06pm with 13,187 notes
badplanets:

11.08.14

badplanets:

11.08.14

Sunday Sep 9 @ 03:30pm with 14,115 notes

I saw a few guys yesterday who, at first glance, I thought were you. They weren’t. I was disappointed. I guess I look for you everywhere I go.

Sunday Sep 9 @ 01:32pm with 0 notes
anxieusly:

liar liar liar liar liar liar liar

anxieusly:

liar liar liar liar liar liar liar

Friday Sep 9 @ 11:27pm with 14,882 notes

day 1,
there’s something about hospital lights and how they make everything seem traslucent and unreal and i swear i don’t remember anything, but the feeling of unreality. you can’t be gone. no. things like that don’t really happen. not in real life anyway.
day 3,
i should have bought that black dress we saw when we we went to the pier. the one i have is too sexy. and you’re not around to tell me - there’s no such thing.
day 4,
i hate funerals. you’re not here to hold my hand. why did they close the casket? i wish i could see your face.
day 7,
my mother tells me i should eat something.
day 8,
is alcohol food?
day 11,
i haven’t slept in three days. i don’t want to ruin the smell of our bed. it still smells like you. like us.
day 14,
my mother washed the sheets while i was asleep on the couch. i kicked her out. i miss you. no, i don’t want to call her. yes, i will.
day 15,
the guy at the coffee shop asked me where you were today. i said you were on a trip, coming back in a week. it didn’t feel like a lie.
day 21,
our lease is almost up. i don’t know what to do. i can’t think.
day 22,
i’m keeping the apartment.
day 23,
i’m moving out.
day 24,
i can’t move out. it’s our apartment.
day 28,
i extended the lease. no name on it. it feels wrong. all of this feels wrong. come back.
day 30,
it’s been a month. i called your mother. she cried. your dad said to stop calling for a while.
day 35,
your parents want your things back.
day 36,
i can’t bring myself to empty your side of the closet.
day 37,
your shirts still smell like you.
day 38,
my therapist said to stop texting you. apparently it’s bad for me. i told her you dying was pretty crappy. she didn’t think it was funny. maybe i’m losing it.
day 58,
i still miss you every day.
day 65,
500 days of summer came out. i don’t want to watch it without you.
day 80,
i watched it. you would have hated it.
day 100,
i hate christmas.
day 101,
i’m hungover. i miss you. i can’t stop crying. my head hurts.
day 150,
i met someone. i hate that i like him. i hate that he makes me laugh. i hate that you’d think he’s a great guy.
day 170,
we had sex. i cried after.
day 200,
he found a photo of us. said it’s about time i move on. we broke up.
day 201,
i still miss you. i don’t miss him. but you’re not here.
day 270,
i got a haircut. i hate it. i look like a chipmunk.
day 271,
maybe it’s not that bad. it works from some angles.
day 302,
happy anniversary baby.
day 303,
i’m a mess. i hate you for leaving me like this.
day 304,
i don’t hate you. i’m sorry. i love you. i miss you.
day 350,
i quit. i hated that place anyway.
day 357,
i asked for my job back. it wasn’t so bad.
day 365,
i spent the whole day on your bench. now i understand why families make them.
day 370,
i’m moving out.
day 371,
i’m moving in with him. i’m sorry.
day 463,
i still miss you, but sometimes i forget.
day 500,
i’m engaged.

number disconnected

m.v., 500 days of grief.  (via findingwordsforthoughts) Friday Sep 9 @ 11:20pm with 4,355 notes
You’re like this flower, and I know it’s Springtime, but I’d just hate to see you get plucked by someone who doesn’t even care that you’re blossoming Arrested Development  (via aisforarvin) Wednesday Sep 9 @ 11:10pm with 6 notes
They burned the bridge, then ask why I don’t visit. Ugo Eze (via heartsisabella)

🙌

(via adorable-lesbians) Wednesday Sep 9 @ 11:09pm with 120,025 notes
"Love is friendship that has caught fire. It is quiet understanding, mutual confidence, sharing and forgiving. It is loyalty through good and bad times. It settles for less than perfection and makes allowances for human weaknesses." - Ann Landers (via the-random-quotes) Wednesday Sep 9 @ 11:04pm with 27 notes
I want to be with you,
it is as simple,
and as complicated as that.
Charles Bukowski  (via real-hiphophead) Wednesday Sep 9 @ 05:24pm with 64,553 notes
Sometimes you meet someone, and it’s so clear that the two of you, on some level belong together. As lovers, or as friends, or as family, or as something entirely different. You just work, whether you understand one another or you’re in love or you’re partners in crime. You meet these people throughout your life, out of nowhere, under the strangest circumstances, and they help you feel alive. I don’t know if that makes me believe in coincidence, or fate, or sheer blind luck, but it definitely makes me believe in something. Unknown (via psych-facts) Wednesday Sep 9 @ 11:34am with 14,749 notes
I think that if I could fall asleep next to you every night, I’d never really be sad again. Midnight thoughts (I already miss you) Wednesday Sep 9 @ 11:33am with 64,078 notes

Don’t tell me this
sucks for you too.

a killer cannot sue
for the bruises
on his knuckles

or the blood
on his shoes.

Beau Taplin, "Counterclaim." (via versteur) Wednesday Sep 9 @ 01:08am with 8,571 notes
Tuesday Sep 9 @ 10:56pm with 5,828 notes
s-k-e-t-c-h-e-d:

you are better than the mediocre love he is giving you by S.B. (fallinlovewithapoet)

s-k-e-t-c-h-e-d:

you are better than the mediocre love he is giving you by S.B. (fallinlovewithapoet)

Tuesday Sep 9 @ 10:31pm with 2,011 notes