I’ve been told that alcohol is bad for me.
I’ve also been told that loving you is bad for me.
I’m still drinkingI.S (via in-toxicxted)
I saw a few guys yesterday who, at first glance, I thought were you. They weren’t. I was disappointed. I guess I look for you everywhere I go.
Two months into our relationship you once asked me how much I loved you and I just said “From here”. You didn’t get it and you got mad and thought I was playing around.
Breaking up after almost two years together, I sent you a message 6 months later saying “To Here”.
You still didn’t get it.
this hit me hard
liar liar liar liar liar liar liar
there’s something about hospital lights and how they make everything seem traslucent and unreal and i swear i don’t remember anything, but the feeling of unreality. you can’t be gone. no. things like that don’t really happen. not in real life anyway.
i should have bought that black dress we saw when we we went to the pier. the one i have is too sexy. and you’re not around to tell me - there’s no such thing.
i hate funerals. you’re not here to hold my hand. why did they close the casket? i wish i could see your face.
my mother tells me i should eat something.
is alcohol food?
i haven’t slept in three days. i don’t want to ruin the smell of our bed. it still smells like you. like us.
my mother washed the sheets while i was asleep on the couch. i kicked her out. i miss you. no, i don’t want to call her. yes, i will.
the guy at the coffee shop asked me where you were today. i said you were on a trip, coming back in a week. it didn’t feel like a lie.
our lease is almost up. i don’t know what to do. i can’t think.
i’m keeping the apartment.
i’m moving out.
i can’t move out. it’s our apartment.
i extended the lease. no name on it. it feels wrong. all of this feels wrong. come back.
it’s been a month. i called your mother. she cried. your dad said to stop calling for a while.
your parents want your things back.
i can’t bring myself to empty your side of the closet.
your shirts still smell like you.
my therapist said to stop texting you. apparently it’s bad for me. i told her you dying was pretty crappy. she didn’t think it was funny. maybe i’m losing it.
i still miss you every day.
500 days of summer came out. i don’t want to watch it without you.
i watched it. you would have hated it.
i hate christmas.
i’m hungover. i miss you. i can’t stop crying. my head hurts.
i met someone. i hate that i like him. i hate that he makes me laugh. i hate that you’d think he’s a great guy.
we had sex. i cried after.
he found a photo of us. said it’s about time i move on. we broke up.
i still miss you. i don’t miss him. but you’re not here.
i got a haircut. i hate it. i look like a chipmunk.
maybe it’s not that bad. it works from some angles.
happy anniversary baby.
i’m a mess. i hate you for leaving me like this.
i don’t hate you. i’m sorry. i love you. i miss you.
i quit. i hated that place anyway.
i asked for my job back. it wasn’t so bad.
i spent the whole day on your bench. now i understand why families make them.
i’m moving out.
i’m moving in with him. i’m sorry.
i still miss you, but sometimes i forget.
number disconnectedm.v., 500 days of grief. (via findingwordsforthoughts)
September 12 || Qantas Credit Union Arena, Sydney, Australia.
This is literally from the video where this crusty asshole was yelling at two wheelchair bound people who were at his concert to stand up. I can’t stand him. He thinks he’s fucking anointed or some shit. As if his music is gonna heal them and make them walk. The entire crowd booed the two wheelchair bound people. Granted they didn’t know but you can’t assume everyone is able bodied. He’s such a dick.
I’m gonna stop you right there cause you have no idea what the fuck you’re talking about. As I was there.. and you were not. You’ve successfully been convinced by the media and their (twisted) version of what happened. I assume you never even saw the footage of it either? He did not yell at anyone, he performed the pre-planned “I want everyone to stand up for this song” bit and he specifically said unless you are disabled/are in a wheelchair then that is fine. He waited til he found out if they were disabled because the crowd was actually boo-ing them and telling them to stand up.. which probably confused him and he thought they were just being stubborn, and the second he found out they were wheelchair bound he said that’s fine and continued with the song. Get it right and stop reading perez hilton fucking articles cause let’s face it that guy amongst all other media sources just want to publicise Kanye in the worst way possible.
it is as simple,
and as complicated as that. Charles Bukowski (via real-hiphophead)
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